The letter to the Philippians is perhaps the most human of all of Paul’s writing. What I mean by that is that in this brief letter you see his heart more clearly than anywhere else. And in this week’s passage, we see it the most clearly of all.
You can find this glimpse of Paul’s heart in Philippians 1:21-22:
Paul’s letter is full of rejoicing. He loves seeing the Philippians grow in their faith. He loves knowing that they are pursuing the gospel whole-heartedly. He is excited about the levels of spiritual maturity they are displaying through their behaviors and actions. He loves seeing them grow, even from afar.
On the other hand, he longs to be with them to encourage them more as they deepen their faith. But he is hindered by prison, and he does not know if he will survive it or not.
In this passage, we see clearly how torn Paul is. He earnestly desires to stay and continue to advance the gospel, in partnership with the Philippian believers. But on the other hand, if he dies, he stands in the presence of Jesus himself! His heart is torn by the choice he faces.
Paul’s statement here refers directly back to the previous statement in verse 20. And at the same time, it is perhaps one of the greatest statements of personal conviction and devotion to the faith ever uttered.